The time has come on this journey when I know that I have reached that point of no return. I know now that my life will never go back to that place I once was. I consider myself a religious man, I do not regularly attend church but I feel like god has a plan for me. Part of his plan was for me to take this journey. This journey of change, one that allows me to continue to be who I am all while improving on different aspects of my mind, my soul and my body. I have come to learn a lot about myself, my feelings toward food and especially about what I am capable of. I am no master of control and I have my moments of weakness and this past week was by far the most difficult time I have had with food since my life change.
Life was busy this week, and that was an understatement! I went to a tailgate/A’s game, had a good size party for my beautiful wife’s birthday and went to a concert among other things. I managed to get 5 work out sessions in but all of these events meant one thing… FOOD! I have allowed myself to indulge on various non-healthy choices along the way but this week seemed different. I didn’t do anything crazy, certainly nothing like the past version of me would have. But, everything adds up and I know that! I ate things that I knew I was not supposed to, like chips and dip, popcorn and some occasional candy. I kept the portions low but did it none the less. There are those out there that tell me I have to live a little and everything in moderation is OK. That statement/guideline works when you don’t have a history of abusing those things that should be consumed in moderation.I know I didn’t overdo it, but was filled with feelings of regret, which ironically provides a false sense of reason to continue. It’s the old … “I have already done it, so why stop now” attitude.
On Sunday I was filled with regret and emotion. I set a goal to get to 299 pounds by Warrior Dash and felt like I had sabotaged my own efforts. I was feeling down but decided I needed to go to the gym. I walked in and immediately saw another gentleman that I could tell was once in the same boat as me, I did my thing and he did his and we ended up chatting about our stories after working out. The first words I asked him were “How much have you lost?” to which his reply was “You would not believe me if I told you!” I quickly came back with “Oh, I will believe you!” We continued chatting and William went on to tell me that he had weighed 554 pounds just one year ago and has since lost over 325 pounds! William and I exchanged contact info and met again at the gym last night and plan on working out together when our schedules permit. Here is a link to Williams story – https://www.sheddingounces.com/2012/10/the-man-myth-legend-meet-william.html
Here I was, down on myself for not sticking to my plan. I had mentally started to regress and some might call it fate but I feel like it’s god’s work continuing to provide guidance. William and I didn’t have a super deep conversation. I know I found comfort in just chatting with someone that understands what I am going through, he knows my struggle and has lived it and lives with it every day. I don’t imagine he understands the impact he had on me that night, but I am grateful that we ran into each other! Weight loss is not linear, my success on the scale this week could have been driven from past weeks worth of effort and I know that my eating this week could prove to make my successes on the scale be less in the future. I don’t chalk this us as a failure but rather another dog eared page in the book of my life. It’s going to be close and I am going to give it my all, pushing my limits and discovering new ones over the next week and half. I will become that 299 pound Warrior I have dreamed of!
Weigh in results:
- 311 lbs
- 141 lbs lost
- 62% to my weight loss goal.
- 31% of total body weight lost
Until Next Time – Warrior in Training
Mario
You can do it, Mario! You have determination in your eyes. Congratulations on all your hard work and dedication thus far on your journey to accomplishing a healthier you!
Best wishes,
Monica
Thank you Monica!